And today, I realized I've been living my life all wrong. I've always lived for others- lived for my parents' expectations, lived for my relatives' and friends' expectations, lived for society's expectations of me. And in the process, I lost myself. I never discovered the person I really was inside, and I never set her free. I do know who I am, who I want to be, but I suppress the real me because who I really am, I know the people who surround me daily will never approve. I thought it was okay to keep the real me hidden, but it's not okay. 21 years later, I've become what everyone expects me to be, who everyone expects me to be. And while I'm happy with what I am now, I'm not happy with who I am. I want to be confident. I want to be contented. I want to be healthier, both physically and mentally. And I realized today, that what's been stopping me from being me all along, is ME. I've allowed others to stop me from being ME, I've allowed others to trample all over me, I've allowed others to create who I ought to be according to their wishes. I let myself be the me today. My current destructive and depressed state is no one's doing, but mine. Because I allowed it to happen.

But no more. From today, I live only for God, and for myself. I'll do things that make me happy, I'll do things that I like. Obviously not at the expense of the happiness of the people who I love and care about, but where it really matters, I won't ever allow anyone to dictate how my life should be, or what I should do, or who I should be. I thought long and hard about things, and I think I know what I want to do with my life in general. I will be positive, and I will be strong about what I want. It's very hard to do all this, but I want positive change, so I'm going to do this. I believe in the Law of Attraction. I want to attract good things to myself, and that must start with me thinking positively. Good people attract good things, happy people attract happy things.

I will always think positively.
I will have confidence in myself as a person- in my character, skills, and abilities.
I am a good person, a unique being. And if you can't love and appreciate me for me, I'm sorry, that's not my fault. And if you let me go, that's your loss.
I will be happy because I have a good life. I am contented with myself, with my life, with what God has blessed me. And I am hugely grateful for the people that God has given me, and for the things that He has blessed me with.
I will strive to be a better person every day, to be good and to do good.

"When you really want something, the whole universe conspires to help you get it." And I know what I want, and I believe it will happen. I will work very hard for it, and I believe I will get it.

I know I will get it.

Hello, I'm Mylene.

I love God, my family, my close friends, chocolate, Nutella, Nugatti, yam paste, Nonya kueh, baking, desserts, crunchy peanut butter, trying out new food places, books, travelling, airplane food, snail mail, vintage anything, medicine, wearing blood-red clothes, The Desiderata, stickers, hearts, making cards and origami, watching comedies, reading mystery/detective novels, playing mystery/detective games, mocha, yoghurt with fruits and muesli, dogs, quirky bags, soft & fluffy towels, pretty lingerie, Christmas, heels I cannot walk in, polka dots, smiles.

I try not to hate on anyone or anything because it's a waste of my time and energy. If I don't like it, I'll either try to change it or just ignore it.

I'm trying to live my life to the fullest, and be the best person that I can be.